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I am a Pisces.
(Also known as "Fish")
My Horroscope starts like this: " A Pisces cannot live without lies and treachery. They often get so wrapped up in their own tall tales that they can easily forget which of their stories are true and which are not. " (Read more | Find yours)
Wowowowowowow it's been so long since I've written in this... WHew..... I still don't know what to say can u believe dat... Haha alright well I'll blog again when I figure out what to say lol
It's like I'm falling. Like I've been falling my whole life. I just pass people by so fast and don't get a chance to do anything. It's even worse to know I can't see anything or hear anyone. I can't do anything. I can't even help myself. I just let everything go and slip away. I seperate my mind from the world. That's when I can portray happiness and all the great memories. But after a while I realize that I can see the flaws in my imagination that sepreate it from reality. And then I return to falling. All I can feel is my body, there's no gravitational force pushing down on me and no wind to indicate I'm actaully falling, but I know I'm falling. I don't believe, I know. Sometimes while I'm falling, theres a flash of light, or whisper, but I try not to be curious as to what it is because it will only lead to insanity. It's simply the boredom of my mind trying to enterain itself, trying to fool itself that something interesting may actually be happening. If I go to believe the simple tricks of my mind I will lose sanity. To lose sanity would create an eternal world of darkness. Darkness that will begin and continue to tamper with my mind, play each trick until the barrier surrounding and protecting my mind is broken and surpassed. At that point, all hell will break lose and nothing will ever matter to anyone, excluding me. I will always have a care for a living thing no matter what their actions, or so I believe. I have never experienced; been through any type of situation that would provoke me to kill others. There were times when I was suicidal but I have long forgotten about those days. The day I confront a situation to kill passing throught all my options quickly, my last resort being murder, I will just break down. I know I can't kill, but I can die. So maybe that's how it will all end. The day of my death will hopefully bring a world of peace, understanding, and knowledgable reasons for every momement, action, word, and thought. My dreams and hopes of everything are far too high to accomplish but in this world, anything is possible. Anything can happen whether thorugh luck, skill, courage, hope, or whatever reason destiny may hold. I magine the impossible and anything can happen; good or bad, death or life; possible or impossible...
I'm finally letting go of everything in my life that I've tried so hard to get to work and to get to understand. It's ok I'll have nothing more to lose. I'll finally live life the way I wanted to ever since I was born. No more problems and no more excuses and more running away. Because there won't be anything to run away from or hide from. I've tried to reach this stage of my life over and over several times in the past. But this time, I'm more than words. I'm more than anything I was before. I'm free to do whatever I want without any caution to die because I'm not scared anymore. With nothing to lose and and no one to love life will be perfect for me. I'm not risking everything or gambling, I just have faith, faith that whether good or bad I land before GOD. Faith that whatever people say that I will just absorb and GOD will carry me through those times. Faith that whatever problems occur through my life little or serious that GOD will be there for me. So I guess that you can say I'm religious but I'm free. No matter what you call me or do to me I don't care anymore. So all those people that enjoyed tormenting me, have fun, kill me for all I care, I have faith and I'm free... [image]untitled.bmp[/image]
Yeah...it's been so long(oh) I find myself still thinkin' about you. Do you ever think about me?(ever think about me) Check this out girl
All those nights that we kissed Are the nights that I miss Holding hands as your man for sure We were young but secure What we had was so pure Innocence ever since we spoke
[Hook:] Why do we fall in love When love will only tear us apart Back when the world was ours Everything was so right(yeah)
[Chorus:] But we were kissing with our eyes closed so tight So young and feeling so right Never thought that we could do wrong Oh we were kissing with our eyes closed so tight So young and feeling so right I can't believe that those days are gone(Yeah,I miss you baby)
So much pride as my girl Thought I showed you the world Memories,you and me,so real(so real) Gave my heart and my soul Made you sunshine from cold All those days,far away from here
[Repeat Hook] [Repeat Chorus]
I still think about you,hear me out... We danced so close, we held on tight(yeah) I never knew that love could feel so right We danced so slow, we danced all night(aah) Assuming that tomorrow would be bright We kissed goodnight, you walked on by The vision of your shadow caught my eye My life stood still, you went inside I never got the chance to say my last goodbye (say goodbye)
[Repeat Chorus x2]
I still can't believe it(no no) After all this time(all this time) I'm still missing you Damn, some things will never change...
Your standing there alone and so am i but i want you here by my side oh you smile at me is everything the staring game that song of love i look you in the eyes i try to read your thoughts i ask you to go with me to a far off place oh i look you in the eyes i try to read your thoughts i ask you to go with me to a far off place
you and me dancing the night away you can feel my heart beating so hard we will guide you on and i've swept you away on a moonlite walk on the beach watching the sunrise for the first time what i mean it true for the one slow dance
your standing there alone and so am i but i want you here by my side oh you smile at me is everything the staring game that song of love
i look you in the eyes i try to read your thoughts i ask you to go with me to a far off place oh i look you in the eyes i try to read your thoughts i ask you to go with me to a far off place
you and me dancing the night away you can feel my heart beating so hard we will guide you on and i've swept you away on a moonlite walk on the beach watching the sunrise for the first time what i mean is true for the one slow dance
we don't have to talk we don't have to live at all i just want you here with me
we don't have to talk we don't have to live at all i just want you here you and me
you and me dancing the night away you can feel my heart beating so hard we will guide you on and i've swept you away on a moonlite walk on the beach watching the sunrise for the first time i mean it's true for the one slow dance
Another day is going by I'm thinking about you all the time But you're out there And I'm here waiting
And I wrote this letter in my head 'Cuz so many things were left unsaid But now you're gone And I can't think straight
This could be the one last chance To make you understand
I'd do anything Just to hold you in my arms To try to make you laugh Some how I can't put you in the past I'd do anything Just to fall asleep with you Will you remember me? 'Cuz I know I won't forget you
Together we broke all the rules Dreaming of dropping out of school And leave this place To never come back
So now maybe after all these years If you miss me have no fear I'll be here I'll be waiting
This could be the one last chance to make you understand And I just can't let you leave me once again
I'd do anything Just to hold you in my arms Try to make you laugh Some how I can't put you in the past I'd do anything Just to fall asleep with you Will you remember me? Cuz i know I won't forget you
I close my eyes And all I see is you I close my eyes I try to sleep I can't forget you Nanana (2 x) And I'd do anything for you Nanana (2 x)
I'd do anything Just to hold you in my arms To try to make you laugh Some how I can't put you in the past I'd do anything Just to fall asleep with you To fall alseep with you, you ya Cuz I know I won't forget you
For those of you who have been in relationships or are currently in one disregarding whether it is serious or not have you ever regretted being in a relationship? Basically I'm asking if you could choose would you not love at all or love and risk getting hurt? Would you want to experience all the goodness of love and then get crushed without mercy? Or would you simple ignore love and not commit to it? Would you be ready to commit yourself to someone and have everything to lose when you can be safe and never try but also never experience that first kiss when your lips tremble? Only to be crushed by everything you created... If you've never experienced love and want to it's pretty much easy for you to choose. If you feel lonely you'll probably easily commit yourself and fall fast. One thing I always wonder is "Why do we love if it will only tear us apart?" So next time you think about a relationship consider every detail and aspect of it. You don't have to be 100% cautious but make sure you have a strong foundation. It's ok to take risks in life but the outcome is your own fault. Love is the greatest ally friend and even thing that can happen to you. But it is also the greatest foe enemy and worst thing that can happen to you.
Another turning point , a fork stuck in the road . Time grabs you by the wrist , directs you where to go. So make the best of this test , and don't ask why. It's not a question , but a lesson learned in time . It's something unpredictable , but in the end is right . I hope you had the time of your life . So take the photographs , and still frames in your mind . Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time . Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial . For what it's worth , it was worth all the while . It's something unpredictable , but in the end is right . I hope you had the time of your life . It's something unpredictable , but in the end is right . I hope you had the time of your life . It's something unpredictable , but in the end is right . I hope you had the time of your life .
Why, do you always do this to me? Why, couldn't you just see through me? How come, you act like this Like you just don't care at all
Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall? I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're far away I could feel I could feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to feel this way I need you, I need you More and more each day It's not supposed to hurt this way I need you, I need you, I need you Tell me, are you and me still together? Tell me, do you think we could last forever? Tell me, why
Hey, listen to what we're not saying Let's play, a different game than what we're playing Try, to look at me and really see my heart
Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart? I could feel I could feel you near me, even when you're far away I could feel I could feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to feel this way I need you, I need you More and more each day It's not supposed to hurt this way I need you, I need you, I need you Tell me, are you and me still together? Tell me, you think we could last forever? Tell me, why
So go and think about whatever you need to think about Go ahead and dream about whatever you need to dream about And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're far away I could feel I could feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to hurt this way I need you, I need you More and more each day It's not supposed to hurt this way I need you, I need you, I need you Tell me
It's not supposed to hurt this way I need you, I need you More and more each day It's not supposed to hurt this way I need you, I need you, I need you Tell me, are you and me still together? Tell me, do you think we could last forever? Tell me, why
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonged to him, and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it. "LORD, you said that once I deicded to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.
The LORD replied, "My precrious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."
I stood in the gloomy, lifeless night. Rain fell hard and a small puddle formed below me. I looked into the shallow puddle which showed my reflection. Tears fled from my eyes. My white hair wet, flew high in the air along with my robes. Blood dripped from my broken heart; so empty and dead. I fell to my knees and water splashed into my face. The feeling was so cold and rare. Puddles formed below me and I could feel my life being taken away, very slowly. I suffered long and finally died on the streets alone. No one cared about me. Not even to give me a single damn penny of all the money they had. Was it my fault I was thrown to the streets? That I couldn't handle life itself? Chances for life again were dangling before me like stirings, then i would reach for it and it would be taken away, as if I were a cat with no feeling, emotion, or sympathy. Finally that long forgotten heart was broken and poured into the empty streets of life. I ascended to where I belonged. Where someone would actually care and give a damn about me. I was losing my grasp on the rope of life. Slipping then suddenly falling, faling forever into and endless pit of death and suffering. I took my last breath before time was up, before death was present to slash my rope and send me home. But where is home? That got me thinking and suddenly I had no idea what I was doing. But I had gone too far into this to just stop now. I bid my farewell to everyone and everything that didn't care for me. I looked death in the eye and smiled. I wasn't falling anymore. All that was once dark, became light and bright path guided me the way. It seemed I never died after all. It was just a dream, a vision to guide me in life.
Despite all the problems in your life and everything you have worked for and earned, and all the people you love and trust, have you ever thought about life itself? Life can lead you to many places especially if you don't take care of it. But how about death? Think about where you will go when you die. Everyone and everything you will leave behind. You could die right now and wouldn't even have a chance to say goodbye as you please. Thats why you have to treat life as a living thing just as it has made you a living thing.
There are certain people that are scared to die. Who don't want to leave yet because of loved ones or unaccomplished goals or whatever other reasons they may hold. Are you one of those people? If you died right now would you be scared? I, myself would not be. I'm more scared of life. Life can take you to many places and bad ones at that. The only reason we are scared of death is because we have no idea where it goes. What's wrong with that? Everyday certain people gamble and take risks. Isn't that the same aspect as not knowing where death will take you? Don't you get the same thrill and excitement, your hearbeating not knowing what the outcome will be? Exactly! So death could be connected to daily things. But when death actually takes places is a very different concept. On the other hand if you can live life for one day you could be dead for one day. It's almost the same. So how do we know we're not dead? Maybe this world or certains of it and death regions just waiting for life again? Possible? Why don't you decide...
-Jerrik
Just a little something that was on my mind. Hey I'm bored, not trying to scare you... It's the truth.
I'm sittin' here all by myself just tryin' to think of something to do Tryin' to think of something, anything just to keep me from thinking of you But you know it's not working out 'cause you're all that's on my mind One thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did And you didn't mean to love me back/but I know you did
I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself that you're not the one for me But the more I think, the less I believe it and the more I want you here with me You know the holidays are coming up I don't want to spend them alone Memories of Christmas time with you will just kill me if I'm on my own I know it's not the smartest thing to do we just can't seem to get it right But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar But with all my inspiration goneit's not getting me very far I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you Oh please, baby won't you take my hand we've got nothing left to prove
And I didn't mean to meet you then we were just kids And I didn't mean to give you chills the way that I kiss And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did No, you didn't mean to love me back But you did
I guess you could say this is the song that Mary has used to define and reason her hatred agaisnt me...
Suddenly it's all making sense again, the past, the memories, the hidden secrets...
All that sorrow and pain just seems to follow your life forever until you doing somthing about it...
But the thing is sometimes you don't know what to do anymore...
I woke up it was 7 I waited 'till 11 Just to figure out that no one would call I think I’ve got a lot of friends But I don't hear from them What's another night all alone When you're spending everyday on you own And here it goes
I'm just a kid And life is a nightmare I'm just a kid I know that its not fair Nobody cares Cause I'm alone and the world is Having more fun than me tonight
And maybe when the night is dead I’ll crawl into my bed I’m staring at these 4 walls again I'll try to think about the last time I had good time Everyone's got somewhere to go And they're gonna leave me here on my own And here it goes
What the hell is wrong with me? Don’t fit in with anybody How did this happen to me? Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep And every night is the worst night ever
Tonight I'm all alone tonight Nobody cares tonight Cause I’m just a kid tonight
Hey dad look at me Think back and talk to me Did I grow up according to plan? Do you think i'm wasting my time Doing things I wanna do? 'Cuz it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud I'm never gonna be good enough for you I can't pretend that I'm all right and you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all Nothing last for ever I'm sorry I can't be perfect Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I try not to think About the pain I feel inside Did you know you used to be my hero? All the days you spent with me Now seem so far away And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud I'm never gonna be good enough for you I can't stand another fight And nothing's alright
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said Nothing's gonna make this right again Please don't turn your back I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you 'Cuz you don't understand
Chatterbox 
I am a Pisces.
(Also known as "Fish")
My Horroscope starts like this: 
Wowowowowowow it's been so long since I've written in this... WHew..... I still don't know what to say can u believe dat... Haha alright well I'll blog again when I figure out what to say lol
